Nov 25, 08 11:58 a.m.

The goal of devoting ourselves to prayer for a specified period of time was to express to God that we treasure the “surpassing greatness of knowing Christ” more than any earthly pleasure and that we are seeking him as our reward.

In praying together I had to confess that there was something about it that I did not like. I tried to define it and the best I could come up with was that I did not like being vulnerable and appearing dependant in front of my wife who knows more about my weaknesses and failings than anyone else.

I openly confessed my pride and pretense, seeking forgiveness and cleansing and maturity in Christ. Theresa and I found the following day a greater freedom to trust one another and an increased joy in partnering toward spiritual growth and service. We are enjoying a deeper sense of friendship and freedom to share the joys in our stumbling toward greatness.

C. S. Lewis
"When I have learned to love God better than my earthly dearest, I shall love my earthly dearest better than I do now. Insofar as I learn to love my earthly dearest at the expense of God and instead of God, I shall be moving toward the state in which I shall not love my earthly dearest at all. When first things are put first, second things are not suppressed but increased."

God granted himself as reward as well. I’ll talk about that tomorrow